She was the one. I met her freshman year and instantly fell in love. I never felt that type of love for someone before. I had previous girlfriends in middle school but, I never felt that way with them before. It was a struggle to get her to fall in love with me. It took me about 5 months for her to give me a chance. I told her I would treat her like a queen. Little did I know it was going to be the best and worst relationship of my life. We were very on and off but we were in love. But for me during this time I didn’t know what love meant. I didn’t know how much I would hurt her. So we were together for about a year and a half. During that year together I was a piece of trash and treated her like she was nothing. She gave me everything during the relationship, she gave it all she had to try and keep me but I left her for another girl. Twice. It broke her, but during that time I was clueless, I was dumb. I was a whole different person after that year with her. I was so used to her giving me everything I wanted that I forgot about treating her like a queen. She was hurting throughout the whole year but I didn’t notice. She was so busy trying to make me happy and didn’t focus on what made her happy. She thought that she wasn’t enough. But she was. Now when I look back, she was perfect. She was all I could ever ask for. As of two weeks ago she completely cut off ties with me. I was devastated because I learned too late. She gave me so many chances to change but I just never learned. But, when she told me she was done for good that time. I really did learn, I really did change. Because I was begging her for another chance but, she turned into a different person after she realized that she deserved better. She didn’t care anymore. She didn’t check up on me. She didn’t answer my calls. She didn’t even seem phased. I was hurting bad, I cried almost every night thinking about how all of this could’ve been different if I would’ve learned sooner. This just taught me so much. It taught me to never hurt a girl like that again. Because what i felt when she left me was how she felt when I left her in the beginning. I know my mistakes and I hate myself for them. The feeling of losing someone that knew everything about you and knows all your secrets is heart wrenching. I miss the late night talks, the hugs, the laughs, and everything else that came with her. But all that pain I put her through made her change into the person I never wanted her to be. Now she doesn’t care anymore, she doesn’t care for love. At least she is happy though. She tells me she’s happy on her own. As much as I want her back and rewrite the past I can’t anymore because I am in love with her, but she doesn´t love me anymore. One day I hope she can give me another chance because I don’t think I can really love anyone else. Because now she is just a stranger with my secrets. I lost my best friend and girlfriend. These two weeks have been hell without her. This is the longest time that we haven’t talked for. I just feel as if she found another guy already. I miss her a lot. She treated me like I was the greatest guy in the world even when I treated her like a side piece. I just hope she knows that I love her more than she will ever know and that if true love is real it will come back. So I really hope one day I cross paths with her again and fall in love all over again. But for now at least I learned and changed my mistakes and now I know to never to that to anyone for the rest of my life.