When schools first closed, it felt like the world was on my side for once. All I ever wanted was to be able to relax at home, and do things I wanted at my own pace. The closing of schools and the beginning of quarantine let this happen. I had so much more free time to do whatever I pleased, so I spent hours on end grinding video games. 

This is what I wanted… right?

The extension of our quarantine just kept getting longer and longer. I began to wonder what I should even do with all this free time on my hands. I tried to keep myself busy by focusing most of my time on trying to improve in the video game I play, Counter-strike: Global Offensive, and reselling sneakers and clothing. The only times I really felt productive was when I would wake up early in the morning for sneaker releases in order for me to flip the sneaker for extra money. When playing CS:GO, I kept trying to improve my game, to get better, but I felt like my progress has been so insignificant, even to this day. 

I am still trying to improve my skills in CS:GO, but it is no longer my priority. Quarantine has been a very confusing time for me. It made me think really hard and realize that I have not done anything significant in my life so far, but there is still time. I need to realize what I want to achieve with my life and work hard to become successful.