I’m tired of talking about quarantine. It’s depressing for me in many ways. How I realize that I have only a few real friends from those who only talked to me because we were stuck in the same facility. How I truly dislike looking at my body from the eating habits or how I lost what I really valued. How time seems to be passing by so quick, and I’m taking it for granted.

Though are you doing okay? Your mental health in check? No delusional or harmful thoughts? Did you eat yet? Did you get out of bed happy? Seriously, are you doing okay. Surely I’m halfway losing my mind with all these crazy dreams I’ve been having.

I feel as though we should be taking this time into bettering ourselves rather than being in the dumps. I get it’s the same routine, eat, sleep and poop, but this situation could be a bit better if we looked at it differently.

Quarantine has brought me happiness. Even with the appealing image of my body diminishing and my list of friends getting shorter. I’m quite glad I realized?

I used to treat my body like a statue on a pedestal rather than a temple that should have the upmost respect. I used to think my beauty defined how my body looked rather than my soul. I think differently now, if my body changes, it’ll be okay, I have time to get it where I want it to be. My friends that I used to talk to in school weren’t really friends since right after March 13th, I didn’t hear a single thing from them. That’s also on my part for not communicating either, but we were only connected because of school. I smiled when I noticed that I only had a couple of friends I could always rely on. Having a bunch of friends sometimes isn’t always the source of happiness.

I know now that I like to tan, eat frozen mango, and I like to eat at the dinner table with my family. I just know more things than I knew before, besides the actual educational factors. With all this free time, we could be discovering what we like and don’t like. Try some new hobbies that seemed bizarre. Maybe even get the desired body or mentality that was always wanted. Watch new movies/ tv shows or read books/ articles of interest. Things that couldn’t be done before in our busy lives.

I really like making these cookies, the title for them is what made me attracted to them. Though this recipe seems more fun with it’s twist, cookies and cream cookies. I’ve been exploring the types of music I like and have expanded my playlists. I keep watching a bunch of movies and tv shows. I truly LOVED Avatar, it was the first time I watched it, 10/10 the uncle is my favorite character. I haven’t been exercising but I plan to, after the “time of the month.” I like to annoy my mom with the political ideas I have, she tells me she doesn’t know what to say anymore. It makes me laugh when she says that.

I don’t want quarantine to be something that’s seen as horrible. It makes me sad to think of the things that happened during this time. Some things just can’t be helped. I’m tired of looking at the media, how harsh it is. I’m tired of seeing people go out, so quick to be reassured when there’s a chance of an increase of death toll. Although covid-19 has caused an uproar and many saddening situations, we should do what we would’ve never done before. Life shouldn’t be taken for granted as it is right now.

My friend once told me late at night when she texted me that I was the only person that had asked if she was doing okay. I hope you’re doing okay. I hope you’re well and benefiting off the free time that we have on our hands. (Wash your hands by the way!) I know we’re all tired of this routine, everyone is, but please find some kind of hope that could make the negatives disappear for a few seconds.