2020-2021 has made me realize multiple things about myself from personality traits to mental issues. I’ve struggled just like the next person, but in actuality, I’ve grateful for quarantine. Outside of school, I’ve experienced issues unique to my identity and learning topics that let me expand my thinking. If I didn’t go through the nonsense that is 2020 I would be lost, confused, and ignorant.

I’ve been interested in becoming a fashion designer for a couple of years but never attempted to practice the art. I knew the basics like different sewing techniques and how to make tiny objects but I wasn’t sure how far my skills could go. I had a lot of time to gather information so it’s just baby steps right now. I didn’t want to fall victim to boredom over quarantine therefore I had nothing to lose.

The deeper I learned about the fashion industry the more I was repulsed by it. Then I learned about capitalism and environmental studies. Apart of me didn’t want to gain such knowledge. A classic case of being ignorant, blissful, and happy, but the truth prevails and I didn’t know what to do. So I still continued to practice because fashion design made me feel good, so I’ve met a stump.

My song is my passion/purpose, for a while I thought it was fashion, but I realized it goes further. Nothing fuels me more than trying to be Eco-friendly and the fashion industry is one of the biggest things that is polluting our earth. So how can I incorporate being Eco-friendly into my work? Well, it starts with understanding that in the world we live in, being run by money and capitalists, that we’ll never attain sustainable living (or at least not for a while). It’s big corporations mass producing, using toxic chemicals in their fabric, and more that causes people to rebel/find new alternatives.

So why bother when my ideas are just ants compared to rich people and their companies. Well, I don’t know, doing nothing keeps me up at night, knowing I tried to help mother earth is comforting. Progressing with my hobbies/future keeps me grounded and true to who I am. I’m excited yet terrified when I try to make my ideas and dreams into a reality.