At the beginning of quarantine I was excited to have a break from school. I was thinking of it as a break from reality. I was able to focus on myself for the first couple of weeks. I took time to figure out the kind of person I wanted to be and better myself. Not just better myself for the face of the world to see, but for me. Being alone every single day was kind of tough on me because I had to make the effort to reach out to people. It wasn’t just being forced on me anymore by going to school, practice, the store, etc. This was the hardest thing for me because I can’t keep conversations to save my life and I don’t like being the first one to reach out to people. This got me in such a poor state. My emotional state got worse before it got better. 

I’m a very conservative person and I don’t like sharing a lot. I like keeping a lot of things to myself and tend to run from the things that I should be paying a lot more attention to. I guess you could say I deny the truth a lot. I found myself spending a lot of time in my bed. For the first couple of months all I did was eat, lay in bed, and play with my dog. I didn’t have the motivation for anything until I found out we were starting soccer training soon. 

Finally, I was able to come out of my comfort zone of who I usually am and be a more outgoing person. I started being more positive everyday and kinder to other people. I found myself being so much happier with everything. I’m still working on being a better me everyday but I have made some good progress since March.