As I witness my family, my friends and of course, myself devoured by emotions time to time, it’s natural to see where it all went wrong. Fear, jealousy and guilt, which we often express in the form of anger, because as humans and social organisms that exceeds in communication over other creatures, we find it difficult to hide our emotions, especially when we are endangered, or are on the brink of being deprived of what we cherish the most in our lives. With this constantly in mind as of late, the podcasts I have listened to and the articles/poems I have read further reinforced this belief of mine that an excess in pride and emotion are just as dangerous as they are essential. Pride is a double-edged sword; it can make you act impulsively, but it can also grant you confidence and the courage to pull through difficult situations. 

The feeling of satisfaction and joy one receives when they achieve or obtain a wish is hard to forget. Even more so, a dark or embarrassing past will latch onto us for much longer. A widening of our eyes and a smile when content; a cry and a frown in times of despair. If I am considered the “average” person, then these expressions should be relatively familiar to most. When I was small (around 6 years old), I had broken a device by accidentally tripping inside the house. No one had noticed at the time, and I must have been incredibly foolish to think I could escape from reality, and hide what had really happened, as I pretended nothing had happened. A few days later, no longer able to contain myself from the guilt and fear, I atoned for my misdoings and I apologized to my mother. Recalling those moments, I felt relieved I admitted to what I did before she found out on her own, which would have made the situations a few times worse. 

The point being, it is important to be able to rationally think under duress, which requires a certain amount of discipline. If I had been able to rid myself from anxiety and unease at the time, and thought about my future actions and what they could result in, the situation could have been suppressed to nothing more than a simple apology right away. Instead, I was consumed by the spike of adrenaline, and wasted the next few days of my life worrying every second of the day if my family would find out. Although the mistakes that could possibly make me worry would be on another scale than this(due to my age at the time), to rationally think in a difficult situation the ability to manipulate and maintain our emotions is crucial, which is what I have been and will be working on for the months/years to come. 

Note: This article is an opinion piece and these ideas are solely mine so please don’t pay it any mind if it conflicts with your beliefs.